Why am I always picking the wrong friends???? Help me please maybe you know why!!!

Sarah

10 years of my life i devoted to protecting and helping this girl. Through my eyes she was my best friend, someone who always had my back and always listened to me when i needed to vent, which wasnt often. Someone who would hang with me every moment of every day. That was what i thought until the last year of our friendship when i was begining to really see her for who she was. I had pulled strings with my friends in the school system to allow her into the same school as I was so that she could graduate from high school. She went a small handful of times. I was working on the same end of town as the school and would have to drive back across town to pick her up and then back again to go to school. Often I would get there and she would either still be sleeping or would decide not to go, school was from 2-5 pm 4 days a week. Three hours a day and she would waste my gass by not calling me or getting up to go to school. I talked to her dad and told her that i wasnt going to come for her for a week and see how long it took her to call me to see when we were going to school. I kept going and eventually i graduated and two weeks earlier that i was planning, thanks to my teacher and Principle at the time, Susan. She never called, never even texted me or mentioned it to me for a whole week until i finally got angery enough to ask her why she was so willing to through her life away. She got back into drugs, and today is a meth head, she continued horeing around with men she had barely met. She wanted to drag me into the drama of her everyday life and I was too tired of always cleaning up after her. I had done it for 10 years and I was just too tired to do it anymore. She got mad at me for graduating from highschool and blamed me for her failure. She hacked my Myspace and put a picture of my nephew on the page with the words "I like butt sex," next to it. My nephew was only two. According to the detective if i had left it they could have put her away for child porn. I wish i had left it now, that sarah would rot in jail for doing that to his picture. I just wanted it down i couldnt believe anyone would stoop so low. She built two more with my picture saying i was a prostitute, i had to change my number because men were calling me and asking about my pricesess. I was barely 18 and graduated from high school and just now getting trapped in highschool drama. The detectives ordered that the sites be removed or she would go to jail, the sites were taken down...only for a little bit. The hardest part for me what not what they said but the person who was doing it. I had loved sarah as a sister once. I had been completely loyal to her and always taken care of her...my mother always complained that I was mothering her and I needed to stop. I thought I was just being a good friend. But she used me often, for food, for a ride, for anything really. She had Stephanie, a druggy albino whore call me up and threaten to beat me up. Seriously are we still in the third grade? Beat me up? Someone needs to grow up. She told me she was more of an adult than me because she had had a baby. Stephani took drugs through the whole pregnancy and her daughter eventually died because of it. To me i didnt see her as someone better than me. I have lived the good life my whole life, never done drugs, i dont drink and the man I lost my verginity to i am marrieing. The Detective said that they were jealous of me, i was taking a med class and working as a CNA making decent money. I didnt really snap until Sarah decided to break me by saying my fiancee rapped her at the begining of his and my relationship. Though the day she chose to use i remember clearly...i was there. It never happened. But I knew that it would only take for her to say that to the right person and this life i was having with him would dissappear completely. I didnt want that to happen, I couldnt let that happen, I stared at his gun for three hours thinking about how to do it and get away with it. How to shut her up for good. I wouldnt let her do this to him, to me. I wouldnt let her get away with it. Anthony came upstairs and found me, we moved to Sandpoint half a week later. we were only there for four months but my pain wasnt over. My car had been messed up because before we left Sarah and his sister Linda, who is just a stupid 25 year old bitch, messed with my car.Linda hated me because I had come between her and Sarah. Sarah started to hate me because she had origenally wanted Anthony. But when i wouldnt budge so easy she got mad. I truely believe Sarah belongs in a mental institute because i have seen the crazy in her eye and heard it in her voice. Sarah in insane. But luck for me, shes not my problem anymore.

Sami Jo

Sami and I were friends since the 8th grade but werent really close until freshman year. We've been out of school for a year now and just a couple weeks ago it ended. I have this problem where i want to help everyone with everything and make life so much easier for them. I love being the hero i think and thats what keeps me doing it. I let her live in my grandparents house while I was house sitting for the winter even though they had told me No they didnt want them there. I lied and helped her anyway. If my grandparents had known that i had broken the rule i would have become homeless very quickly. Sami was upset because she had attatched herself to a dog that she had no business having. Her parents told her no and her boyfriend had no place to put it and so she turned to me. I let the dog and her stay there for a week because she said that was all the time she needed. It was always hard for me to say no when she was in tears. On Friday i let James, her "gangster" boyfriend, (at least he wishes he were a gangster) stay at my house too. I let them eat my food and sleep in my bed. It wasnt long before my mom caught on and kicked them out. I got the butt chewing of a life time and though I felt bad I couldnt help but feel worse that there was nothing else i could do to help. It was only days later when Sami called me in tears at 5 in the morning to tell me that James had cheated on her on their 2 year anniversary. I hurried over to her house to hear the whole story and she showed me the evidance she had. I gave her my advice and told her to move one that if he was the one pushing the girl to keep cheating then it was most likely not a healthy relationship for her to be in. She took a break for two weeks before taking him back. He put an 'I Love you." On her facebook page and to me a sign of love isnt usually cheating on the person. I know now i should have left it alone but on the other hand i am glad i did what i did because now i know how little i meant to her. I only put a :l as a comment to what he said and he blew up at me on facebook of all places. I learned that Sami had told him that I had been talking trash about him and trying to hook her up with other guys when i never did any of that. I never liked the guy but i am good at keeping my opinion to myself if it is going to hurt a friend. I also had to tell 6 guys we all knew to back off and leave her alone. I never tried to hook her up with anyone. So that kind of grownd on my nerves a bit. When I confronted her about it she told me he was lieing. When i tried to get her to get him off my back and set him straight she wouldnt back me. she was my maid of honor at one point and she never was able to remember my wedding date. She never called to see if there was anything that she could do for me as far as the wedding or even offered to get together a batcheloret party. Even though i was informed today that i still wont be getting a batchelorett party i dont think i mind it so much haha. The same day I was chewed out by the gangster wanna be I ended my freindship with Sami Jo. Mom also said that I mothered her and shes probably right since she was last time too. All i ever want is to help my friends and take care of them, make life a little easier and less stressfull for them. But now twice this has happened to me where i am rewarded with being treated like crap.But she too is no longer my problem.

Ashley

I know I know better and your probably wondering whats wrong with me by now, but you know what they say "third times a charm," you would think anyway right? I have only been friends with Ashley for two years but it already feels like a life time. Ashley is already on her second child and not even 21 yet. You can see how she would need some mothering. I have had to call womens shelters but shes never gone and taken her to appointments and missed my own. I bought her food when her boyfriend, at the time, who is the daddie to both babies wouldnt . I did everything I can for her, and for what? To be ditched and stranded twice in one day? To be chewed out for calling so much when she doesnt come get me when she says she will and i cant get ahold of her for 3 days straight. Excuse me for being worried. I helped her move out of her house and I helped support her through all of the emotional stuff and for such little reward. I have never been kind and helpful to people for reward but a kind word or a thank you wouldnt kill me either.

So I wonder am i just the pathetic looser with too much love to give? Do i do it to gain acceptance? I really dont know but I can tell you this. I am so tired right now of all the drama these girls are giving me. Sami and Ashley are both a year older but i feel like i am 20 years older always cleaning up after them and making sure their booboo gets a kiss...so to speak. I just dont understand why i am drawn to such terrible friends. People who take advantage of my kindness and just make me feel like crap for anything i do that isnt for them. All I every try to be is a good friend and I always end up hurt in the end. Does anyone know why? Please tell me if you know. because I am desperate to know. And why does this only ever happen with my female friends? Non of my guy friends ever stab me in the back. Just the girls. Help me please.